June 18th, Trying to Talk to the Boys...

I called 6:04pm, left message. 6:33pm, left message. I went to call again around 7pm and noticed a missed call from him at 6:55pm. I was excited! It didn't last long though.

I called back and heard something along the lines of "this call is being recorded" from automated woman's voice. I go "what was that? is this call being recorded?" he said "yes, I record all of my phone calls". It was the first time I had heard that and I told him several times I don't consent to this phone call being recorded and he said it didn't matter because he told me ahead of time it was being recorded. I said well I don't consent to it because in the papers it says these phone calls are not to be monitored. He said "they're not, they're being recorded". Seriously he's driving me nuts. So I guess he can do whatever he wants and he makes sure I don't. I had to deal with it otherwise I wouldn't be able to talk to the kids.

So he began to talk "Before you talk to the boys I have a few questions to ask you first". I'm thinking great, I just want to talk to them now, hear their voices and then I'll talk to you. "Why did you pack only a few outfits and some were either too small or too big? The clothes smelled of cigarette smoke I don't like people smoking around my children. The boys were dirty, why were they so dirty?" I explained he got what he got because I had 30 minutes to get things together and my mind was all over the place. They were dirty because they were playing in the fenced yard at my moms house. Then we get in to the fact how I need to have my own phone that in the court papers it states how I am responsible for my own communication. Well I am I'm borrowing a phone from someone that I live with. I was told that in the future I could not talk to the boys until I got my own phone and phone number. How is that right? It doesn't make sense to me? Really, come up with something better to keep me from talking to them.

I did talk to them, it was comfort to a mothers ears. I miss them dearly and in 58 days I get to have them back. Needless to say my attorney is now involved again. I'm trying to get my ducks in a row so I can fix this whole mess with the phone calls, visitation and child support. If my ex husband would let the past go and stop being so spiteful this would be so much easier on everyone involved especially the kids. Problem is, I live in a state where law enforcement can interpret and enforce court documents and he lives in a state where they don't get involved in civil matters. I feel like a 4 year old when I say, "it's not fair!"